Lists and Other Crazy Thoughts

I am a list person.  I love making lists, then diligently crossing items off my list.  My problem, however, is that I get bored easily then toss my list to the side and forget about it.  Then I remember the said list, look it over, decide I need to make a new list and hence the process begins all over again.  Yes, I even drive myself a little nuts.

So my lists seem to keep growing.  I have much to do, but as you know from the previous post, I am the Queen of Procrastination, so then things start building up.  I like to tell myself that I work better under pressure, but not sure if that's really the case because then I stress.  Many of my list items involve photography.  Part of the reason they don't get crossed off is out of fear, I suppose.    

One reason (of many) I love my husband...last night I was discussing with him my desire to contact a local photographer to be my mentor last night.  And he gives me a look, and I said, What?!  He said "You don't need to do that, you don't give yourself enough credit.  You take amazing photos, better than a lot of other photographers, and you need to stop being afraid and just do it".  He is absolutely right, though!

My downfall is my negativity and my desire for perfection.  I think everything has to be absolutely perfect or I won't post it or share with people...and I am this way with everything!!!  I agonize over every little detail, every little blur.  I am overly critical.  Even now, I could look at one of my photos that is perfectly fine to the eye of most and I will point out the negative.  Kade's one year announcement has been sitting in my Photoshop program for about a week now, finished, but I am still thinking did I choose the right pictures...is each one sharp enough, etc.  SO, one goal for me this year is to BE POSITIVE and VALUE MYSELF.  I will add that to my list, haha!  

So, I tried to find pictures I have taken lately that do not have Kade in them...and well, it's hard to find many.  I have a few scenic shots, a few of Shane on his Quad, a few of Christmas lights at Shore Acres, our Christmas tree and that may be it.  Wow, I really need to broaden my photographic vision like I had to before Kade.  Here's a couple from Oregon I took:

Shore Acres, so beautiful!  This is HOME to me.  Before Kade I would have taken pictures of every little thing I saw at the beach, but instead I got only three scenic pictures. Crazy!

Moon at Shore Acres...I took this because my Dad said it was going to be way too foggy at Shore Acres, not a good night to see the lights and we wouldn't be able to see the moon.  When I got there, what did I see?!  A picture perfect view of the moon, so I took it to say haha, we COULD see the moon, Dad.  It actually came out pretty good considering no tripod and pitch blackness.  Yay!  Thanks to Dad I wouldn't have taken this shot.

So what have I learned from this post?!
Don't be so hard on myself...concentrate on my positives, not my negatives... and take a moment to look at the beauty around me in addition to Kade.